Taking My Life Back

Taking My Life Back

As I get my belongings
together to load them into the
moving truck I stop and think
to myself it's surely time that I
finally stand my ground for it's
time that I take my life back.

I can't stay in this abusive
relationship any longer.
If any good has come of this
relationship I would have to
say it made me stronger.

I just want you to know that
my love for you has been so very true.
I'm unable to see why I should
stay for I'm so very tired of all
the lying and sporting eyes of black and blue.

The hurt and the pain and the
bruising can surely be seen on
the outside of me but believe
me they are inside as well.
My heart has been broken and
my mind has been dealing with all this.

The tears that are beginning to
fill my eyes are not tears of joy
or happiness but more so of
tears of the pain that I have
been living for these past three years.

Well my belongings are all
loaded in the moving truck but
before leaving I stop and go
back in what use to be our
apartment to just take one
quick look around to make sure
I have everything.

Yes all is packed and all is in
the truck I'm ready to go out
this front door just as I get to
the front door the telephone rings.
I stop and turn around and give
the phone an awful stare then I
walk over to the phone I
hesitate picking it up but
then I finally do.

Hello I say as I answer the
phone then I hear your voice at the other end.
I should have known that it would be you.
You are now pleading for me to stay.

I say to you that I can't find
any reason to want to stay any
longer for I need to go away.
You tell me that things will
change if I just don't go away.

I think to myself where have I
heard these same words
before.
My mind is already made up
and the moving truck is already
loaded I'm out of here I say as
I hang up the phone.

It's time to call it quits I then
walk back over to the front door
and turn the knob to leave then
lock the front door.
Then leaving my keys for you in
the mailbox.

As I get in the moving truck I
look out the windshield as to
say my very last good-byes.
I'm going away and there's no
turning back.

I'm now on my way but as I go
the tears begin to flow.
I can't help but thinking of all
the times we've shared the
good and the bad at this time
I'm feeling that I'm at an all time low.

Then I remember all the abuse
and the hurt and the pain in my
life I just can't take it any more
this is all I do know.
The tears continue to flow
down my face.

I'm on my way and there's no
turning back I'm not about to
leave any trails for there is no
way you'll know of my whereabouts.
I'm standing my ground today
and from this day forward I'm
taking my life back.

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